2 1/2 and A Month Old!

My little girls are both growing up so fast. They are both so amazing and I love them both so much. They are my whole world and I could not ask for better children.

Caitlynn just turned 2 1/2. I am not sure where the time went. I feel like she is still a baby just like Kairi but she isn't. Shes has grown into such a wonderful little girl. She can sometimes be a pain and she does drive me crazy every single day but I love her all the same. I mean shes a 2 year old shes doing the normal thing. She loves her sister and is the best big sister I have ever seen. I can already tell they have a special bond and I am excited to see it grow. She is a very stubborn girl and no matter how much I try she will not potty train but she will get there. She also does not want to talk. I know she can but she won't for some strange reason. I wish I could do something more but I don't know what to do. I guess she will do it all when she feels like it and I just got to keep trying. Other then that shes a typical 2 year old and loves to run around like crazy. I love her with all my heart.

I cannot believe my baby is a month old! It doesn't seem like that is even possible. Time sure does go fast. Shes the best baby. She never cries until she is hungry. She is a little piggy though. She loves to eat. Every 2 hours sometimes she might go 4 if I am lucky but she eats a lot! But even when she cries it is not very loud. She is growing like a weed! I love it! She can hold her head pretty good by herself now and she is starting to grab at everything. She already likes to pull my hair. She is also starting to smile all the time and talking a lot. I love watching her grow! Shes so amazing and I love her so much! I can't believe how big my girls are getting and how fast they are growing. I love watching them grow but I wish they would slow down a little bit. Life is definitely interesting and wonderful.

Welcome to the world Kairi Colette Peterson!

It's been a few days now and I figured some people might be interested in knowing how everything went with Kairi. Monday (March 12th) I had a doctors appointment, this appointment went like normal ones, go get checked (I was almost at a 5) and then get hooked on the monitors just to be safe. I was having contractions but they weren't concerned. When I was about to leave my midwife said come back tomorrow I want to make sure you aren't like at a 6 or anything and then we will induce you on Wednesday. To me this was music to my ears. I was huge, miserable and very done being pregnant. Well Monday night the contractions picked back up and they had me a little concerned. When I had Caitlynn I went from a 5 to a 10 in an hour and with me already at a 5 and having big contractions I didn't want to risk having Kairi at home or something. So about 11:30 pm I woke up Daryl and him and Daniel gave me a Priesthood blessing and then we went on our happy little way. By the time we got there is was midnight so technically I was considered 38 weeks so I was sure this might work out in my favor. I get there they put me in a room for monitoring and I am in there maybe 30 minutes when they say "We are going to admit you." Once again music to my ears!! I was so excited but terrified. They take me to a room and say we aren't going to start labor yet (which means they aren't going to give me the medicine that helps you along) but they were going to put an IV in my arm. The nurse goes to put one in my left hand and my vein blew! Yeah that has never happened to me before! And it hurt way bad! She said she was going to go get someone else to do it. Comes back and tells me they are going to keep me overnight but only to monitor me and then in the morning they will take me to see the specialist to make sure the baby is ok to come. To me I found this completely frustrating! I mean seriously! I understood why they were doing it but I was 38 weeks for crying out loud! Full term is 37 weeks! I had Caitlynn 4 days before this time and she was fine! I just wasn't happy with this. That night I pretty much just laid there mad, having contractions and not being able to sleep because Daniel wasn't next to me (he was on the couch). Finally around 5:30 am I start to fall asleep and what happens? The nurses walk in! Yeah wasn't happy. They said they would let me sleep till about 7 and then have me get up take a shower, eat breakfast and try as fast as they can to get me into the specialist. Yeah I didn't sleep. I got to see the specialist fairly soon. Like at 9 am and I was told they weren't even in until 9 am. When that was over I was told Kairi passed 8/8 so everything was good and they were not sure why I was here. Which I didn't either. I waited awhile to be wheeled back to my room and when I got there my midwife was there. All I could think is "thank goodness someone with a brain." She told me they were going to start me now and take it from there. I was so happy! The nurses came into to put an IV in and blew another in my left arm, couldn't get one in a vein in my left arm (that one hurt the worse) and finally they called someone else and she came and got one in my right arm. The whole time I told them I have never had luck with my left arm! Once again I wasn't a happy camper! After that happened it was pretty much a waiting game. They would come in and turn up my medicine slowly to make me have more contractions. They checked me and I was at a 6 so I at least was progressing. Then out of no where my midwife came in and said "I am here to break your water." Which freaked me out because last time they let me get the epidural first but she was super busy and that was the only time she had to do it. She broke it and it was the weirdest thing I have ever experienced, just tons of liquid. Then came the first part I do believe. I started having bad contractions, so bad I was crying and my mom wouldn't leave my side because she knew I was hurting. They asked when I wanted an epidural and I told them as soon as possible. I probably only had the bad contractions for about 40 mins. That's not to bad but man did they hurt. The epidural went well this time. He had to try twice but that was better then the 5-6 I had with Caitlynn. Actually it didn't hurt as bad maybe because I was already distracted with the contractions. After they got the epidural in I was so much happier. I was relax and calm and felt great. Here is an image to show you just how happy I was.

I even decided I was going to take a nap. Right after they checked me and I was at a 7 and they said they were going to come back in 40 mins and check again. I was almost asleep when they came in and the nurse barley even checked. She said it was time to go. She called my midwife and my midwife asked "Do I have like 5 mins." The nurses response "No you don't" Then she called for a quick set up. Yeah I was freaking out that she was just going to fall out or something. My midwife got there and they had me pushing right away. I gave a few good pushes and she was out. They had to get her out fast because her cord was super tight. It wasn't around her neck all the way but it was a little. Her heartbeat actually went down to 50 (which isn't good for babies) and came out purple, but was ok. I am so thankful that I got her out so fast or it might of ended badly. I am also grateful for my midwife she told me the next day they were fighting her about starting me but she felt like it was the right thing to do. Then when she saw the cord like that she knew it was a great idea they did start me because any longer Kairi might not be here right now. I am so grateful for the Holy Ghost and the things it tells people. Thats about it. We stayed in the hospital for two days. Not much happened except she keeps chocking and gagging because of the stuff she swollen while in the birth canal but it went away and we got through it though it was scary.Here is a picture of her and her stats.

Kairi Colette Peterson
6 pounds 5 ounces
18 inches
March 13th 2012 @ 3:01 pm.
So technically even though I was there since Monday night I was only in true labor for about 4-5 hours! Man that was fast! I am so happy she is finally here and I feel for now that my family is complete. I am sure I will have more kids at sometime but right now I am happy with my two very perfect little girls!!

Hospital Visit #3

This is the 3rd time I went to the hospital for this pregnancy. Which I guess isn't do bad since with Caitlynn it was a lot more but they were all at the end so that might change. I went because I was in tons of pain and seriously nothing I did helped it. I didn't want to go but I got a blessing that said it would be best that I did. Well I got there and they did the normal hook me up to monitors to see if I was having contractions and keep an eye on Kairi. Well they wanted to do a lab because they thought I had a bladder infection. Laid there a good hour and half. I was having some pretty good contractions show up. The nurse comes back in and says nothing is wrong to go home and deal with it. I asked about the contractions and she said they aren't regular so they don't matter. Which by the way I hate because guess what they hurt! They matter! I asked her to make sure I wasn't dilated because I thought maybe I was because with Caitlynn I was 3 cm by 35 weeks. Granted that a like 2 weeks a way I just wanted to make sure. Well nope nothing! I guess thats a good thing but at the same time I was hoping it was maybe at least a 1 cm just so that the pain made sense. That way I don't feel like a complete whiner! But nope its thick closed and long. Which is great for baby because she needs a little more time. Not so great for the momma! They said if its worse by Monday to go get checked out at my clinic. It was a long exhausting day with no answers. I hate that! Its like getting kicked when your already down! I pray for the strength to get through this! Because sometimes its just so hard!

Life.

No matter how hard you to try to stay positive life still brings everyone down. I don't get why it has to be hard. I tell people all the time its alright just think positive everything will work out fine. Then don't do the same for myself. I guess I am just having a hard time. We have lived in this basement for about 5 1/2 years. That's terrible! No matter how hard we try to get out it doesn't work. It seems like we are just getting farther and farther away from our goal. Daniel applies for jobs all the time. He has been for the last two years. Yes hes almost been at Wal Mart for 2 years, but nothing! I don't know why. I am tired of going in the hole every paycheck no matter what we do. Plus we are going to add one more to the bunch. How are we going to handle it? I am just really stressing out. He lost hours at work only works 37 hours a week or less. It's just so hard to stay positive when everything goes the other way. I really think a few month after Kairi is born I will have to start looking for a job. Want to know how much that hurts me? Not because I am lazy and don't want to work but because I want to be able to be here for my daughters all the time. This point in time though I don't know if I will be able too because I also need to help financially. I just am not sure what we are doing wrong. Why can't things just turn around for once? Why does life have to be hard and suck? Is there any light at the end of this dark tunnel? I sure hope so.

Yer A Wizard Harry!

Ok I have quite a new obession lately. What is that you ask? Well its Harry Potter.

Why? I am not sure. We got all the Harry Potter movies on Blu-Ray and then decided to watch them all. Granted we didn't watch them back to back or anything because that would be about 19 hours straight of movies!! But we did watch 2 movies once or twice a week till we finished them. This took so long because we invited our friends and unlike us they have actually lives lol. Anyways we were almost done with the movies when I decided to read the books again. I have read them all before but its been such a long time!!! Now I am just a little crazy with the whole thing. I have to admit I love it! I am not sure why and I am not sure why now its coming out of me. I think I have always enjoyed Harry Potter films and books I just didn't admit the whole enjoyness because I didn't want people to think I was a weirdo. But I think now I don't care what people think, so I can let my Harry Potter nerd self out. I seriously really want to buy a cape! I think that would be so cool! And Daniel was joking about buying me a wand and to be honest I think that would be actually pretty awesome. I just thought I would let you know I am now crazy! If you didn't know this before. I guess I should of let myself become this way a long time ago and not when the whole thing is basically over. Oh well! It's just all so magical (he he see what I did there ;D)

Callings.

Sometimes I fee like I am just not suppose to have callings. The first one I ever had I was suppose to go to the Relief Society gatherings and watch the kids. Yeah I never did it. That was my bad and I feel bad I didn't do it. My 2nd I was in the library and I did pretty good at it but got pregnant with Caitlynn and had to ask to be released because of how sick I got. This time I am in the nursery have been for about a year. I was doing a great job at it but now not so much. I just hurt and its really hard to deal with tons of children when you hurt that much. Today I made it through most of sacrament but had to leave because contractions were getting bad. Still are quite bad, its probably why I am blogging to help keep my mind off of it lol. Anyways I just feel like I am letting so many people down because I am not in there. The recently put someone new in the nursery with me and I have been there once in the last month to help her. I am pretty sure she hates me. I just wish I could do what I am suppose to. I feel like I let the Lord down because I do not do the things I am suppose too. I don't know what I am trying to say. I just wish I could do more I guess.

Photography.

Man I miss taking pictures! It seems like I never get out of the house. I just want to take pictures!!! Not sure why. But since I decided not to have a business right now until my skills approve its kind of hard to take pictures of anyone. For one no one wants to volunteer and for another I have a child that beautiful but hates me taking her picture lol. I just keep looking at great ways I am going to take pictures of Kairi. I am so excited to get to take a newborns pictures. I have been wanting to try for some time but haven't been able too. I heard its tricky and would like to at least try. Not sure if any of this makes sense. Maybe I will get brave enough and go for a walk or something. That is if the wind dies down.