My Angry Issues.

I have always had anger issues and I take most things to heart so a lot of things make me angry. I used to express those emotions all the time but I am trying to become more understand and be nicer. Well in my class I couldn't take it and I think I might of made it worse for me. For some reason I feel like my instructor doesn't like me very much and he says a lot of things to me that really do not make sense. Well I kind of went off on him. I will explain. I have to do discussion questions its pretty normal with online school.
The question I had to answer was this:Using examples, describe the difference between depth and volume. Is it possible to have a sense of volume without a sense of depth? And conversely, is it possible to have a sense of depth without a sense of volume?
My responds: The difference between depth and volume is volume is capacity and depth is length. For example; if you look at a square box volume would be the space inside the box and depth would be how far the box went back. It is impossible to have a sense of volume without depth because depth is what makes up the volume. You can however have depth and not volume if you do not think about what is in the depth.
It was very simple but get the question answered.
My instructor says:Your answer is simple, perhaps a bit too simple. I would like you to describe the difference between depth and volume again. What you have written is correct, but not too clear. Think about trying to explain the difference to a class room of 1st graders or someone who has no artistic understanding. Really break it down and explain depth and volume with examples so anyone can understand.
What? Seriously? How freakin complicated do think this subject is? I get stuff like this all the time and ignore it because I think its stupid well this time I couldn't
I responded: I really do not understand what you are saying. Yes my answer is simple but it explains what depth and volume is and there really isn't much to it. If I was explaining it to a class room of 1st graders I would still do it the same. I work with kids every Sunday and I have one of my own and know they do not have much of an attention span so I would get the point a cross as quick and simple as I could, which I did. Also if I wanted to explain it to someone with no artistic understanding I think this would work. Even with out artistic understanding I think everyone knows what a square box is. I know I will probably loose points for this but I do not know what to say. Depth and volume is not a hard concept to understand.
I probably took it to far and I probably shouldn't of done that but oh well can't take it back now. I guess I am not getting an A in this class!

Life.

I've been thinking a lot about how this isn't exactly how I wanted my life to go. This morning though dancing around the kitchen with Caitlynn I realized it IS exactly everything I could hope for. Yes we do not have a place of our own, but we have each other. I have a perfect family and could not ask for more. Ok maybe I can and that would be to add to this perfect family ;) I know one day we will be on our own and have a place we will have all to our own. Sometimes I feel like we will live here forever but I know thats not the case. You know what I need to do? I need to put more faith in the Lord and I know that. I know with his help all things are possible and I need to remember that all the time and believe in it more. Sometimes I struggle but don't we all? I know that this is how my life is suppose to be and I love all of it even if its not what my plans have been. I have a wonderful husband that loves me for me, that takes care of me and my daughter and works his butt off at work and school to support us. I have an amazing daughter that even though she drives me crazy I couldn't imagine life without her. I love when she sings or dances. When she just randomly gives me hugs and kisses because I know she loves me. I also have wonderful family members and friends I am sure you know who are. I will one day have more children to love and teach that I am sure I will love just as much as Caitlynn. I am also sure Caitlynn one day will be a great big sister. I just have an overpower feeling that life is going to turn around for us soon as long as we put faith in the Lord. I am really blessed!

Day 5: A Song That Reminds Me Of Someone

Well its pretty obvious who this song reminds me of. Just the most wonderful beautiful little girl ever!!! I love Caitlynn Suzanne Peterson! She is just so wonderful and I am so grateful for her! She is a great blessing! She drives me crazy most days but that's ok because I love her and couldn't see life without her!!
In My Daughter's Eyes- Martina McBride!

Day 4: A Song That Makes You Sad.

Yeah I have no idea!!! Any songs that make you guys sad?

Day 3: A Song That Makes You Happy

This song makes me EXTREMELY happy!! It's mine and Daniels song! He is my everything! My life is wonderful because of him!! I love him more then words can say and my love grows for him more and more everyday. I am so thankful for him and all he has helped me through. Hes just amazing!
Looking Through Your Eyes- LeAnn Rimes

Day 2: Your Least Favorite song

I have quite a few songs I do not like. Mostly they are stupid songs that get stuck in my head FOREVER!!!!!! Like the stupid Bird Is the Word song or The Gambler! YUCK!
I decided to go with Particle Man By They Might Be Giants! What a stupid song!!

School Change!

I changed my degree! From a Bachelors to an Associates. Now school will only be 4 years instead of 8 since I am going half time!! Its not going to affect anything I have done so far! I just didn't think I needed a Bachelors when really I am just doing this for me! I think its awesome I was able to switch with no problems!
I start a new class Monday and it looks way confusing I am going to have to actually read the material this time! I have to do a lot of crazy designs maybe I will put some up when I finish them so you can all see what they look like :D
I love school it makes me happy! (most days)

Day 1: Your Favorite Song

This was a hard one because I have a lot of favorite songs!!! But this one is AWESOME!! It has an amazing message! I can really relate to this song!!
Sing-My Chemical Romance

30 Days of Music

This is another 30 day thing but its music! I am trying to be more happy and what makes me happy? MUSIC! I think its going to be awesome!
day 01 - your favorite song
day 02 - your least favorite song
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Happy.

I am going to try to be more happy. Happy with my life, happy with who I am and happy with my choices. Hopefully I can do this because lately I haven't been. I get told by people I suck at what I love to do, I am a horrible mom, I don't clean or cook and I am plain lazy. I need to learn to ignore what people say and try to change those thoughts in my head. I know these things are not true but its hard to keep telling yourself that when you get told differently. Like I said I hope I can do this and maybe the posts on here will be a little more cheerful.

30 Days of Truth

Ok I decided I do not want to do this! The reason I haven't been doing it is because I feel I might make people mad at me, or offend someone. I know this is my blog and I have all right to do and say what I think but I really do not want more people mad at me for silly reasons. I just thought I would let you all know that.