The pills have helped me but at the same time I feel like I am helping myself. Sure the house is a mess, my school work is still getting turned in late, some days I just want to cry but it changing slowly. Every day I get a little more positive and try to change little things. I know my problem. The problem is me. Yes I have depression. Yes there is nothing I did to cause that. But that doesn't mean I need to let it drag me down. I can fight it day in and day out. If I want things to change I am going to have to change them. Its not going to happen if I do not do it. Yes its going to be hard yes there is going to be days I stumble but I won't let it drag me down and keep a hold on me. I can do this. How do I know? Because the first time in forever (fyi totally sang that line in my head) I have confidence in myself. I have a positive outlook instead of doubt. I know if I want things to change the first change is going to have to be me.
